love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
this has been a long, emotional journey for me. needless to say, this weekend, i was ready to give up. after a very good heart to heart with my wife, i was able to admit how stressed out i’ve been over these past few months with work and our relationship. i was chatting with a friend and even she said that didn’t recognize me because i’m not my usual happy, spiritual self. i’ve spoken about in the previous blogs, but i’m sure this is the reason why i’m not getting pregnant. my wife confirmed the same thing for me.
as i was on hold with the RE this morning, their hold message is about how stress effects fertility. so that was the confirmation i needed. i’m going to start meditating again today, start my writing, and i’m scheduling a massage AND accupuncture. dear god, i hope this makes me feel sane again and makes me happy again.
sorry this message is so vague. i’m at work and am trying to dash off a few lines before my next class comes.