divine words

As I was reading this evening, I came across this beautiful gem.

From Eat, Pray, Love

I look at the Augusteum, and I think that perhaps my life has not actually been so chaotic, after all. It is merely this world that is chaotic, bring changes to us all that nobody could have anticipated. The Augusteum warns me not to get attached to any obsolete ideas about who I am, what I represent, whom I belong to, or what function I may once have intended to serve. Yesterday I might have been a glorious monument to somebody, true enough– but tomorrow i could be a fireworks depository. Even in the Eternal City, says the silent Augusteum, one must always be prepared for riotous and endless waves of transformation.

So much wisdom in those words that I needed to hear tonight. God, I hear you.

a smiley already!

Warning ahead. There’s going to be a LOT of ttc talk in the coming days (months) so brace yourself.

I’ve been instructed to do my opks daily so that my RE can monitory my ovulation days. According to most OPK directions, you’re supposed to use FMU (first morning urine) and wait until the second line is as dark as the reference line. Because I’ve been around the e-block a few times, I know that it’s best to retest throughout the day, because the hormone in your urine builds up throughout the day or that you may surge later in the day. Since the egg is only good for about 24 hours, it’s important to get the timing as close as possible because frozen sperm doesn’t last as long as fresh.

So over the past 3 days, my OPK has been getting darker and this mornings was as pretty close as I thought it would get. I took the digital OPK this afternoon and got my smiley already! I need to call the RE to see if their other office is open today or if I should just go in first thing in the morning. Dildo cam (or transvaginal ultrasound if you want to be technical about it), here I come!

I’m realizing that I need to update my acronym list.