Epiphany in 2 Parts

Part I

I know I’m in a rut when

… I don’t feel like being around people. People annoy me.

… I don’t want to talk. I shut down and stop communicating.

… I feel like I’m not living up to my “shoulds.”

… I focus on every single thing that’s not working in my life, no matter how disproportionate it is to the joys and successes.

… I eat a lot of carbs.

…I am angry, even if it’s not demonstrative.

… I’m not motivated to go to church or read or write.

… I feel resentful.

…I feel like I have nothing to contribute.

…I feel used up and taken for granted.

Part II

Perhaps

… Doctors not being able to heal me is a push for me to heal myself. Maybe it’s a sign that this is the lesson I am to learn.

…Things are always better than they seem.

.. Energy and issues in my relationship stem from me not putting that same energy into myself. When I take the focus off my relationship and onto myself, things seem to improve.

… Activities that allow me to be in a zone when I’m purely feeling and not thinking (processing) raise my energy and vibration levels. These include prayer, exercise, deep breathing, meditation, sex, being in nature/outdoors.