love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
can any of the “other” mothers chime in with help?
i’m feeling really lost about this whole thing and very much like the “dad.” it was a bit sad going to the doctor’s appointment and the ob/gyn (who’s also my doctor too) not even speaking to me. i felt like i had to jump in the conversation to be acknowledged.
i feel like i’m supposed to just bend over backwards to make things comfortable and easy but it still doesnt protect me from being the main one in the line of fire about ANYTHING, even if it has nothing to do with me.
i feel like my opinion or wishes or feelings simply don’t matter about anything and frankly it hurts. i already know what ppl are going to say– it’s the hormones, don’t take it personal, that’s what parenting is, etc etc. so i’m trying my best to just suck it up and deal with it. after all, there’s 35 more weeks left.
i’m supposed to be happy but frankly i’m not.
by the way, 9 days left to testing. yipee (and yes that was meant as sarcastic as possible).