love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
all is well (i think) in ttc news. i’ve actually been temping every morning (one of the things i said i’d never do) and surprisingly did *not* get a yeast infection from the round of antibiotics i had to take for the hsg test. i’ve been losing weight (yay! another thing i thought i’d never had to do b/c i’ve always been ‘normal’ weight) but have quite a bit of a pooch where there was none before– perhaps i’m bloated? it’s kinda weird b/c i dont feel sore like i thought i would feel if my eggs were supersized, so i don’t know.
i have some fear that tomorrow when i go in for my u/s that the RE will tell me my eggs are not big enough or that i’ve ovulated or something else. i guess i’m just afraid of yet another setback. luckily i got called away from teaching duties today to work some more on my school’s master schedule and then devise a schedule for next week for our benchmark testing. so i literally set with my senior director, me and another teacher, and the high school director from 9 am -4:15 pounding away on our laptops. that was a good thing to distract me from all the “what if” and “maybe not” thoughts. even still, i found myself resting my hands on top of my belly underneath my breasts hoping that there’s a nice juicy folli waiting to burst.
well tomorrow at 8 am, i’ll know something. after that, i plan to spend the rest of the day at the state fair b/c in dallas, it is “fair day” and there’s no school and all the kids and teachers got free tickets for the fair. bring on the chicken fried bacon! (yes, that is a real fair item and no, i will not be eating it for real)