love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
i just got back from the RE and i’m so glad it’s over. all the waiting was nerve-wracking. first we get to the RE and i’m embarrassed because we have this giant box that says “biological shipper” on the side and this is conservative ass texas and i don’t want people looking at us funny. then, two women are LOUDLY discussing their reproductive woes complete with miscarriages, d&cs, years of trying, etc etc. i wanted to yell “come on. are you really discussing *that* *here.* i’m already a nervous wreck and you’re adding insult to injury.”
soon enough, i’m shown to the examination room and wait for the doctor sans knickers. we realize that we’re seeing the other RE (we need names now. our first RE is gonna be called Dr. GAP [gay and proud… we think] and the other one we saw today is gonna be Dr. MF [matter of fact…not muthafucka, hee hee]). so dr. mf goes over my chart with me and assures me that my arcuate uterus is a normal variant and nothing to be concerned with. he was a bit concerned with my tubes since it was hard for the dye to go through and says that it could be from muscle spasms during the procedure or scar tissue from STD from hettie sex. small problem.. i’ve never had hettie sex so he’s a bit perplexed by that one. all in all, he recommends that we try iui for 3 months and if there’s a problem at that point, i need to get a laparoscopy done.
after the preliminaries, he finally gets to the ovaries. nothing on the left side but right away we see some juicy ones growing on the right. the big one is already measuring at 17.5 mm and there was another one at 15 mm. he’s confident that if we do the trigger on saturday night, sunday morning, at least one will be very mature and hopefully both. that made me feel so much better. i raised the concern that if they are this size with clomid, is it possible they werent maturing before. he said that’s probably exactly what was happening. that, plus when they did mature, it was happening so late (day 19) that their viability was already compromised and they were too hard to be penetrated. that also was a sigh of relief. now i realize why it was so hard for me to get pregnant before.
lastly, i asked about whether or not it would be worthwhile to be more aggressive sooner and he said that honestly it would be a waste of resources (money) because i am having good follicular growth now, my lining is progressing normally, and if there’s nothing wrong with my tubes, i should be pregnant within 3 months. furthermore, if this cycle doesnt work, i’ll be able to up my dosage of clomid to 100mg next month. i really appreciated his frankness and am feeling optimistic and hopeful.
right now i’m resting at home (school’s closed for the state fair) and getting excited, not only about the fact that this may work, but about the possibility of releasing two eggs and possibly having twins. honestly, that’s what i really want. i’m back on the bandwagon of excitement!! oh yeah. the iui is scheduled for monday at 4:15 pm so i was going to do the trigger shot sunday at 4 am.