love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
yes i’m trying to get rid of a few pounds, but i’m also going to be getting rid of some of the other types of weight around here. and if it involves you, don’t take it personal– it’s really about ME.
since i’m no longer ttc (please dont twist my words to lecture me about the fact that i’m going to be a mom.. i do know that very much) i don’t really see the point in participating in a lot of ttc threads and blogs. there are few that i still identify with because of the person behind the blog and that i appreciate that they share things that are more than just ttc. but i am starting to feel that perhaps this whole ttc blogland has become this one big competition that goes something like this:
stage 1– yay i’m starting to ttc and i hope i get pregnant the first month
stage 2– well it’s been a few months and i need to try this new herbal remedy or acupuncture or _______________ (insert eastern remedy here)
stage 3– it’s not working yet.
stage 4– i hate all pregnant people and hetties. looking for commiseration and time to clear my blogroll.
stage 5– either stop trying, take a break, or go to the RE. (if you don’t have the funds, it pretty much stops here)
stage 6– i’m going to try this and that new medical procedure and try to have my baby
stage 7- i hate all pregnant people and hetties. woe is me
now i’m not gonna front like i haven’t been all funky about not being able to conceive. but at the end of the day, it doesnt define me. i’m more than my ability to have a baby in the womb. it doesnt dictate whether or not i can be a mother. it doesnt dictate how much worth i have as a human being.
so all that to say is that i need to lose a little “weight” around here because the energy of ttc blogland is messing up my chi.
*disclaimer* this is in response to a variety of blogs, some listed and some not. so don’t think i’m trying to talk about one particular person.