love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
2010 is here in full force. I’m working on turning over a new leaf and doing the things that I’ve been wanting but not putting effort towards.
I won’t bore yall with my extensive list for 2010, but I’m happy that things are going pretty well (I know it’s only 6 days in..). I am a little worried though about whether we will stay in this rhythm once classes start back up for me, but for today, I’m going to stay in the present.
Today, I went through my drawer and realized I’m in bad need of some new clothes, once again. Last year, I threw out damn near my entire wardrobe because NOTHING fit and I looked horrible stuffed into my clothes. Especially working with teenagers, wearing too tight clothes is NOT a good thing when you’re curvy. Now here it is a year later and I wish I had more of those things left because I need something to wear :(. At least this is an excuse to revamp the closet– believe it or not, I’m not a typical woman. I really dislike clothes shopping and never know what to buy. A buys all my clothes for me; she has a really good eye for stuff that looks good on me.
On the home front, LA is getting better with sleeping in her crib. In fact, last night she went to sleep with barely a whimper. I stood by her door in case she was just playing with me and was going to wail, but she didnt! She had a rough 4 days previously but we discovered it was because we were giving her yogurt and it was hurting her stomach. Poor thing whined and cried for hours. As soon as we stopped the yogurt and gave her some Gripe water, she was immediately soothed. I don’t know if she’s just too young for yogurt or if she is sensitive to lactose (though she can eat lowfat yogurt fine and her formula is milk-based). I’ll have to ask her pediatrician about that.
Update on me: I went back and forth about whether I should blog about TTC because I really don’t want to set myself up for heartbreak again when I get all the well-wishes, convince myself that I’m pregnant, only to be greeted with negative hpt after negative hpt (see the side bar for acronyms). But on the other hand, what is a blog if it’s not honest? I don’t have it all together at every moment of the day, so why only present the happy picture of what I’m going through? So that’s where I am right now with blogging.
A few months ago, I went to a new RE in the state where I work and he said I was a prime candidate for IVF. The problem is that my insurance won’t cover it, though they are MUCH better than my previous insurance in TX. However, they will cover IUI and the associated medicine and such associated with it. So my dilemma is whether to get a permanent job in this state because IVF is part of mandatory coverage (right now, I’m long term temp so I don’t have benefits through them. We live in the neighboring state, so I have insurance through A’s job there). Or if I should pursue getting my tubes unblocked and then go the IUI route, despite the additional fears of that not working or having an ectopic pregnancy. Right now, I’m leaning more towards the second option, so I’ll keep you posted on that.
It looks like I’m going to be back in the TTC saddle again, after a year break. I used to wonder how people could stand to TTC for 3+ years. As I enter my third year (though I wasn’t TTC the entire time), I VERY much get it now!