love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
Thank you all for the tremendous support that you’ve given me in general, but especially over the past few days. I’m starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel, though I’m not sure exactly what the future holds. Two really important pieces of advice have really been sitting with me– 1) We are all God’s best students, are loved and blessed. Even when it seems like everyone else gets what they want, or that I don’t get what I want so I must deserve it less, none of that is true. It’s pure ego and we all have blessings in ways that we forget to count. On top of that, everyone has some sort of journey that they go through.
The 2nd (from my wife) is that sometimes we go through life always wanting the next thing, focusing on the emotions surrounding that, discontent when that thing doesn’t give you the peace or reassurance that you want, that we forget to appreciate what we have today. That really hit home with me. I’ve been in constant anxiety worrying about what’s to come and why I don’t have it, that I’ve given little thought to the present. It reminds me of how Buddhism really spoke to my heart– it gave me a tool to evaluate dealing with the present moment, and I see how far I’ve strayed from that.
So I’m christening (no pun intended) Mondays, Monday Appreciation. I invite you to do the same.
Today, I appreciate
1- Having a job that’s flexible enough that I can arrive a little late, work through lunch, and otherwise accommodate my needs.
2- A getting LA dressed and ready in the mornings, so I can feel a little less rushed in the mornings.
3- Having skills and education that will allow me to make the changes in lives (including mine) in the way that I dream.
4- Having friends that listen to me vent, ground me in reality, revoke my pity party invitations when necessary.
5- Having had the experience in the past of completely rehauling my credit and saving money. It reminds me that I can do it again.
6- Having a tough childhood because it pushes me and motivates me.
7- Having a small apartment that forces us to declutter often and that’s fairly easy to clean.
8- Knowing that God hasn’t left me even when I’m angry and mad and sad at him/her/it.
9- Having insurance that pays a good chunk of the costs associated with TTC.
10- Having a job that affords me this opportunity to keep trying.
There are so many other things I appreciate, but those are the ones that are forefront right now 🙂