love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
I know I’ve been pretty quiet lately and it’s not for lack of anything going on.
I’m so. fucking. busy. I catch myself eating fast (so NOT like me) just because everything else is in hyper drive. I’m fantasizing of 1-2 hours (even 1-2 days or even *gulp* weeks) of being completely detached and unobligated. I actually want to sit somewhere with no place to go, no email to return, no homework phonecall from any kid, no parent texts, no cell phone period, no laptop, no class to attend, no paper to write, no lesson plan to create, no bills to pay, no errands to run, no crying toddler to attend to at 1, 2, 3, 4, or 5 am. I want to just DECOMPRESS!
Now, I’m not complaining because I have SO many blessings that I can’t begin to number. My sister and her wife came into town this weekend all the way from California to surprise me for my birthday. I’m employed and getting good reviews at work, my kids are learning, I have fewer kids in detention, I’m making it to class, my child slept through the night 2 nights ago and seems to be on her way tonight, I have a partner that is really helping to take the load off for me though she has a load of her own. And those blessings are just the beginning.
But Lord I would be lying if I said I didn’t crave just one moment to be still!