love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
Turns out, I might be able to do an IUI with the RE after all. I had my day 3 monitoring this morning. When the nurse came in after I was properly undressed waist down (sidenote- the door accidentally locked and I had to waddle across the room to unlock it with that damn sheet draped around my waist. This is the SECOND time I’ve had to do this with the RE. Last time, I had to open up the front door to the office!)
The nurse reviews my file and is unsure why I’m there because my dr is on vacation and I’m clearly not doing an IVF. I then heard she and the dr on call discussing me in the hall. Long story short, she looks at my file, sees that I’m clearly over-responding and makes sure that I know that if I do an IUI and it’s unsuccessful that I’ll have to wait another month to try IVF. She then asks how much gonal-f I have at home (I’m an in-house pharmacy so I’m stocked). Finally she says she’s going to go back thoroughly over my files, including the notes from the roundtable meeting they had about me in early January, and will be calling me back this afternoon with instructions and an update. Even if they choose not to, she did sign the authorization for me to pick up the swimmers on my own from the new cryobank.
Beyond all that, I’m feeling.. dare I say, happy? Hopeful? And I’ve felt this before the appointment this morning. I feel calm in general and like I have a gameplan for life. I’ve been updating my resume, getting positive feedback about it, and am making steps to create the life I dream about, despite my fertility diagnosis, job situation, or anything. I am the co-creator with God for my life and I have ability and choice.