Lessons

Yesterday’s Daily Word inspires me to look at the blessings of this journey instead of the end result that I’ve been anticipating since I was 5 years old.

For the past 3 years I’ve learned

• The unexpected will happen. Not just the bad, but the good too.
• When I think there are no other options left, God shows me ones I never considered.
• I am much stronger than I think I am.
• When push comes to shove, I can persevere.
• I’ve learned to advocate for myself like never before.
• I love being a mother more than I thought I would.
• Biology isn’t a necessary prerequisite for unconditional love.
• My body is mystical.
• I can find immense support from people I’ve never even met (or even know what they look like!)
• The sisterhood around infertility transcends race, class, lifestyle, belief system, or anything else.

Posting this has made me feel a little better.

Updated plan— I’m thinking that since I can’t do an IUI now (feeling my little eggs burst and melt away as I type this), I’ll go ahead with my biopsy in a week and then do the fiber optic hysteroscopy on day 6-11 as previously planned. Just found out that my thrombo panel was negative, so that’s good. I’m wondering if my dr will let me start IVF (suppression and retrieval) while I’m doing the hysteroscopy and uterine biopsy. That way I can do an egg retrieval and freeze any embryos that make it, then do a transfer later. At this point this is all just thinking aloud. We shall see what tomorrow brings.

Thank you EVERYONE that’s praying for me and us.