love, life, and the pursuit of liberation
From this moment, I am publicly declaring that there is NOTHING wrong with my body. Test after test reveals that nothing is wrong with me. “Unexplained” is a bullshit way for the doctor’s to avoid admitting that their protocol is not one size fits all.
Yes, there are things that I can be doing differently mentally, physically, nutritionally, emotionally, spiritually. But the bottom line is that my body is perfect and EVERYTHING is in Divine order. I truly believe that.
Emotional/mental state to work on— Since I got the first blow and “infertile” label in December 2008, I never truly believed that I could get pregnant. Even though I had several tries after that, in the back of my mind, I doubted that it would ever happen. I REMOVE ALL DOUBT. I will be pregnant and the timing will be perfect.
Nutritionally– I have not treated my body the best. I’ve relied too much on processed foods and caffeine to keep me going. I REMOVE ALL SElF-HARM. I treat my body with the utmost respect and give it what it needs.
Medically– I have subjected my body to all sorts of tests with today being the most horrific experience with the endometrial biopsy. Through the tears and shaking I yelled at the doctor NO MORE. I WILL NOT SUBJECT MYSELF TO ANY TEST OR PROCEDURE THAT I DO NOT THINK ADDS TO MY WELL-BEING. I AM NOT A HUMAN GUINEA PIG. I know what is best for me and will only align my self and body with people who agree.
Socially-– I reject the infertile label. I have not been pregnant YET and am working on it. PERIOD. I will be pregnant and all is well.