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Emerging

I posted this on FB a few moments ago:

Thankful for all those that have listened to me, prayed for me, gave me space, and just loved me during this time. Today’s affirmation from Louise Hay is very fitting “I know I am worth healing.”

I know I have been MIA this past month (has it really been that long) and even though I haven’t responded to comments, please know that I’ve read all of them and have cried over many. I’m very very grateful for the support that you all have given me. I didn’t know it was possible to hit a new bottom, but I am thankful that you all have kept hope and faith alive for me, even if you didn’t know it.

So what the hell have I been up to? Don’t worry, this is not going to be lengthy because if I try to commit to that, I’ll stall even more on this post.

  • Therapy. Yep, I finally admitted that sleeping most of the day, “forgetting” (or not caring) to eat, and crying all day isn’t healthy. It got to the point that I simply didn’t know what to do to get through this and I did and do need help. I’m loving it.
  • Relationship. We are a work in progress, but I’m thankful that the emphasis can be on progress.
  • Work. I’ve been stepping out of my comfort zone in some ways but things are going well. I put on my first event for all of the schools that I support and it went well.
  • Birthday. I celebrated my birthday on Monday and I’m now 33!!
  • LA. She has been moved up at school and is in an official pre-school class (with the 3 year olds). She even has homework nightly. SHE’S ALSO 100% POTTY-TRAINED with minimal accidents. She even sleeps in undies overnight and during naptime. AMEN!
  • Infertility (yes, I used the dreaded word). I’m on metformin FINALLY and just finished another pack of birth control pills. We’re investigating whether it’s financially feasible to use A’s eggs as my donor. Also, I’m not sure how many IVF’s cycles we have left. If 2 more, than we’ll try with my scrambled eggs. If 1 and semi-affordable (let’s face it, it’s going to be astronomical regardless), then we’ll go with A’s eggs in my body.

Now that this post is out of the way, I feel a little better about blogging more. I’m still not “there” yet with returning to twitter. I don’t know why but the mixing and interacting with many people is over-whelming to me right now. It’s like I have little emotional energy to expend and I just can’t deal with too much social media.

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11 comments on “Emerging

  1. Jackie
    September 16, 2011

    I’m glad to hear that you are on metformin. It was a miracle drug for me. How many mgs are you taking? I wish you all of the best!!!

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    • liberationtheory
      September 16, 2011

      I’m on 1500mg and it’s forcing me to eat better because I feel sick as hell when I don’t. LIke now, when I had burger and fries for dinner. Too many carbs and I feel like it’s going to come up.

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  2. Black Muse
    September 16, 2011

    I’m glad to hear that you’re healing. I’m sending you affirming, healing, positive energy.

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  3. Monika
    September 17, 2011

    I am so damn glad to read you. Glad that you heal and ….. for you being you.
    You are incredible beautiful!!!! And so much more….
    Did I mention that I am glad? šŸ™‚

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  4. rachelbk
    September 17, 2011

    I love that you’re not afraid to post about the good, bad and ugly sides of life. You’re undoubtedly a better woman for it, and you’re undoubtedly helping others want to be better too. I wish you all the success in all your endeavors because no one deserves it more!

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  5. Autumn
    September 18, 2011

    šŸ™‚ Glad to see you typing again. Have a wonderful week.

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  6. The Next Beyond
    September 18, 2011

    relief!

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  7. halfadozen
    September 19, 2011

    xxxx glad you are back…

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  8. IVFJess
    September 21, 2011

    I’ve been thinking of you. Missing you on Twitter- but I know how important it is to take a break and take care of yourself however possible.

    Wonderful news about your insurance covering A as your donor- that’s just amazing. Good luck on your new path forward. I’ll be checking in on you and cheering for you along the way.

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  9. sunnymama
    September 21, 2011

    Lovely to see you blogging again and sending you much love and best wishes. xx

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